Monday, April 15, 2024

20240415 Memory Improvement from Injury

20240415 Memory Improvement from Injury


 Usually by 3 PM each day, my thinking ability has pretty much evaporated.  


My memory is slowly getting better.  I have discovered in last few days that exploring new environments such as getting coffee in Concord, visiting the lawyer for our moving to a new home, exposes to me a lot of my forgetfulness.  My bad memory is very bothersome to me and probably others when I am away from home and in a new situation.

After we bought an agreement to live in Concord, we learned that Douglas Hatfield lived at “HHH” and he is the head of the project committee for the homes.  Douglas Hatfield was a good friend of my father.  He had a son that I was aware of but didn’t know very well because he was about 6 grades behind me at my school.

I spent some time reviewing my memories and physical records of my father's relationship with attorney Douglas Hatfield and it brought back many memories from the last 40 years about Hatfield, his family, Sunday Church services in Hillsboro and one of his female attorneys who I met in the 90’s when I was visiting my parents in NH.

I am grateful now that I did not dispose of “old” records because they were “old.”  They just fill boxes and boxes of writing that I had completely forgotten I had ever written.  I was reminded of them when I started going through them to find and clear out junk.  Not much junk, but a lot of personal history that I had forgotten.

Potential organization into my personal autobiography, or at least a few short stories over the future years.  My example is “I. Asimov."

Monday, March 04, 2024

Sermons of Meister Eckhart, Counsel 21. Of Zeal

Sermons of Meister EckhartSermons of Meister Eckhart by Meister Eckhart
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Valuable book for review. I learn something new every time I reread sections or paragraphs. I have his best for me paragraph taped to the top of my bathroom mirror.

Counsel 21. Of Zeal, page 274,
"People ought to learn to be free of their works as they perform them. For a man who has not practiced this, it is hard, learning to attain to a state in which the people around him and the works he performs are no hindrance---and much zeal is needed to achieve this---so that God is present to him and his light shines in him undiminished, whatever the occasion, whatever the environment. For this a lively zeal is needed, and, particularly, two things. One is that a man should have his inwardness well protected, and that is mind be on its guard against the images that surround him outside, keeping them out, never letting them intrude to occupy him and accompany him, never letting them find a home in him. The second is that a man does not allow himself to be weakened or distracted or alienated by any multiplicity, not by his own inward images, whether these be his own imaginings or an exaltation of his perceptions, not be outward images or whatever else it may be that he has present to him. To this he ought to apply and turn all his power."


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Monday, January 01, 2024

The Sense of “I”

 How do I relate these two quotes to explain that they both have the same metaphysical position? LaShan is abstract, Peters is concrete examples.  I am not sure that my point comes across.


(I can write my notes fast and best in email before I share them, by blogging or writing in a comment block on Facebook.  My memories for current stuff is difficult but older stuff, like typing, engineering and department head of Navigation or Weapons in the Navy or juggling are just as strong as always.)

What I want to write about is the relationship between reading about the sense of “I” in chapter 8, page 98 of How to Meditate A Guide to Self Discovery by Lawrence LeShan and Tom Peters essay “Quality can be had in an instant: keeping it every day is the real achievement” from Washington Times November 1993.

Lawrence LaShan writes The Meditation of “Who Am I?” Section of chapter 8, page 99.  He says “I am the person who feels tired,” the reply is “No, that is a sensation I feel. Who is the I who has that sensation?”

Tom Peters writes ON EXCELENCE in the Employment Guide. 
He writes for a restaurant waiter  “… you can become excellent in a nanosecond, starting with your first guest tonight.  Simply picture yourself, even if it’s a very fuzzy picture, as the greatest  waiter ever — and start acting accordingly.
“For the first 99.9 percent of getting from here to there is the determination to do it, and not to compromise, no matter what sort of roadblocks those around you (including peers) erect.
“… (1)  keep your morale up amid inevitable storms, 
(2) learn something new every day, and 
(3) practice that something, awkward or not, every day, no matter what.
“How long does it take you, as boss, to achieve world-class quality?  Less than a nanosecond to attain it, a lifetime of passionate pursuit to maintain it.
“… the deeper point is that you’ll either change in a nanosecond — or never. It’s true with booze, smokes, fat and world-class quality.  The determined shift of mindset is an all-or-nothing deal.
“… It takes forever to maintain change … ; it takes but a flash to achieve change of even the most dramatic sort.

Peters is providing instructions for the sensations and action, but knows the “I” cannot be changed.  The I has the ownership of all of it?  {Actually the I cannot even be spoken about.}


LeShan, Lawrence. How to Meditate (p. 98). Little, Brown and Company. Kindle Edition. 
Tom Peters in an essay I tore from the Washington Times in 1993.

The Powerful, Unexpected Impact of Memory Notes Dec 4, 2023

 On Mon, Dec 4, 2023 at 12:57 PM, Frederick Vogt wrote:

Essay I am making an effort to recall new stuff

My memory is getting better, but still very weak in that not everything is recalled.  Last night at supper, Amanda taught me that we were eating “Zucchini.”  I was calling it “Zen” because I could not recall the actual name for the vegetable.

Due to bad memory I am writing notes, and as of Wednesday memory cards, to hold onto things that I want to recall.  Today I have written about the philosophical (?) sense of “I" as done by Lawerence LaShan and in 1993 by Tom Peters.

My notes are not as dense as my steno pads listing what I was doing every few minutes.  The last couple of days my short term memory has been much better so I don’t need to make the steno pads as full of details as I have been doing the past two months.  The notes and memory cards carry ideas and facts that I want to know and recall.

The powerful, unexpected impact of my memory notes is that as I review them during the day and evening I develop a much better understanding of what they say.  The first example of this is the memorization of the first three definitions in my math book.  They seemed trivial, and what was their real purpose?  I had the idea because our math instructor in 1975 said we would skip them because they were obvious and should have been acquired as part of our abstract algebra course, so he would not waste his time by going over them with his advanced calculus class.

What I discovered as I read my current memorization notes in pencil on scratch paper was that these three definitions at the start of the book covered three concepts that could be well expressed with Venn diagrams.  They also presented an obvious, now that I knew them, layout of sets.

  1. Venn diagram one is nothing: Math definition is the empty set.
  2. Venn diagram two is overlap of two circles: Math definition is that part of one set is part of another set, complements.
  3. Venn diagram three is one circle inside of another: Math definition is for subsets.

Post of 20121215. Winning Raffle at Waynes' Pub

20121215 Friday a week ago, I won a raffle! A nice tote bag full of class beers and great glasses and other items.  I have never won a raffle on my own before. But as the Maryland Lottery keeps telling us, "You have to play to win!"  I have never played, or rarely played a raffle before. 

How did this happen? I walked into my favorite bar when I got home from work, about 8 pm. Amanda Peake was still working that night so I was by myself. My second most favorite bartender (after Shayna Clevenger), Alice Kistner, asked me if I wanted to buy a raffle ticket for the SPCA? (That was where all the young people crowding my favorite home away from home were from.) I said OK, I'll by one for a couple of dollars.  Alice said "You can have three for $5!"  Since she is blonde, friendly, and one of my favorite bartenders, I said OK, and handed her a five.

I forgot about the raffle and focused on the famous Mahaffey's Pub beer list.   After a while Dennis came you to me and said, "Hey Fred, is your last name Voight?" I said yeah that's close enough. Dennis said "You won the raffle!" H"e set a big, big, tote bag full of stuff and a box of a dozen glasses on the counter in front of me.  I looked up. A bunch of young people that I didn't know where cheering.  I young lady came up and shook my hand "Thank-you for supporting the SPCA!"  A asked her her name, she told me and I said thanks [her name].  They a young man stepped you and repeated the ceremony. I didn't ask him his name. Just said "I'm always glad to help."  

I didn't feel like I deserved all the stuff I won. I felt guilty. I bought the tickets because I like Alice, not because I have anything for the SPCA.  But that can be our secret.  It was a wonderful gift; I go wandering off into the dark, hand out five dollars and come home with a tote bag full of beer! 

Life doesn't get much better than that!

20121215

Training People in Fitness

I see that you are taking a role leading your fitness classes?
Very inspiring for an “natural” introvert like me.  I have always preferred solitary exercise so that I can make ad hoc changes to my workout without it having an effect on anyone else.  

I understand the value of training others from my work experience over the years, it deepens my own understanding and skills.  I look at my current efforts to keep fit, and I wonder why certain things that I take for granted now, were never taught to me by adults when I was growing up,  things like deliberate practice, breaking a skill down into pieces learning the pieces and putting it together for better performance, setting goals and measuring results, figuring out how to do better.  I know many adults that try something, like a fitness workout and quit it because “it is just too hard,” “it is too difficult,” or I tried that for a few days (or weeks) and I didn’t see the results that people claim so I stopped.  Reflecting on these encounters, I recognize the value of playing sports, team sports, and learning a musical instrument when I was in school.  I recall workouts that the basketball or soccer coach had us do, and has a child I considered them boring and a waste of time.  Only now do I begin to see some of the real value that was being shown to me.

The skills I needed were demonstrated but never put into worlds.  Without the words I was slow to generalize ideas that could cross over from sports to music to academic studies.

Since my move to NH, I have paid more attention to other people and why they do the things they do, People I meet, people I recall, and occasionally fictional people.  I some people have an understanding of what it takes to maintain and keep a kind of fitness.  I was profoundly influenced by reading “Tarzan of the Apes” when I was a child, and stories my mother told me about the athletic skills of my great-grand father.  Other people either never participate in sports, or if they did, do not apply the ideas to their current lives.

 

Journal Writing, second try

 Thanks for the journal writing posted by James Clear.  I like his footnotes, but I haven’t taken the time to read all of them.  Thanks.


I still have not figured out the web page format for journalling.  I just found this, I’ll try it out but use my email a a personal backup for my journal entries that are not hand written on paper.


(I inserted a comment in your previous email of Nov 4th.)

Text format history in IT world:
I didn’t print out hard copies all the time.  What I did was save my files in “text” format, a feature that all word processing programs had, but in some of the programs, like Word Perfect, it was hard to find text as an export choice.  

The benefit of text was that text is readable by anything that we have used since the 90’s (maybe earlier, I took some computer programming classes at Old Dominion College night school courses in 1987, and it usually worked there for the large computer, main frame, that each student had an account with.  These were the days before “expensive” personal computers, PCs, could be made available to a individual students, unless you could get through the line of waiting students at the “workshop".) 

Text is a translation of computer language in order to make it readable by humans.  How many people do you know that can use the classic 1,0 format for their communications?

For years, the 70’s and 80’s,  I did not want to get involved with computer language, tape with holes punched in it.  Only when the text output/input computer main frames began to show up on Navy ships was I inspired to take the IT courses at the local college in Norfolk Virginia.

The computer programming course that I took in college consisted of taking the punched tape of a machine that looked like a keyboard communications device, run the punched tape through the mainstream reader, come back the next day to get the results from the main frame output.  If there were any errors in the punched tape, need to fix them and run the 24 hour reading again.  What a pain in the ass that was.

Journal writing:

I still have not figured out the best media/format to use for my journals.
I wish I had known that you kept and wrote journals.  I gave away all my journal writing books this past year.  I had several good books about journaling, how to write journals and different practical needs for journals. Most of these needs had to do with personal growth and psychological/emotional welfare.  I never read any of these books thoroughly, just the table of contents and interesting chapters.

I kept one journal book, that was recommended to me by one of Lorraine Fertch's friends who I met at medical seminar one weekend.  The book is Writing for Your Life: A Guide and Comanpanion To The Inner Worlds.
( Ha, Ha, I just learned how to underline on my personal computer.  I have been so sloppy at learning the features of my personal products.  I know nothing compared to what I knew about computers, etc., when I worked in IT guiding groups of young folks to do IT support.)

The book is by Deena Metzger.  I only read the first 21 pages, I enjoyed them and marked in the margins what I thought was valuable.

I just put this book on my daily morning reading list.  I can at least finish reading the first chapter. 

I bought myself a 3 ring binder earlier in the week and filled it with 100 pages of lined white paper. The intention is to have a convenient paper journal, where pages can be removed or added as necessary .

Your discussion led me to 

Planning the Ocean Cruises, Reading Fiction

 Planning the Ocean Cruises, Reading Fiction


The captain of the ship learns about a good crew, ship construction, trip mapping, and worthy destinations. Some people spend their lives in  building or mapping, but at some point the realization that ready or not, travel is called for, time to move from engineer, builder, to traveler to my destination.

That is me.  One reason why I am conversing so much and reading so much conversation and fiction, less fact, less philosophy, is that I  have to absorb what I want now.  It is not what I used to want, or say, and have never mastered.  It is that time for me to move forward, ready or not, I must move!

Today I have Tarzan and the Ant Men in front of me.  Homer or Adler are not in front of me.  One chapter of Jean Klein will make it.


Jean Klien

“Questioner: In certain situations in life I feel blocked by a fear which prevents me from acting. How can I be free from this obstacle?

Jean Klein: First free yourself from the word, the concept, ‘fear’. It is loaded with memory. Face only the perception. Accept the sensation completely. When the personality who judges and controls is completely absent, when there is no
longer a psychological relationship with the sensation, it is really welcomed and unfolds. Only in welcoming without a welcomer can there be real transformation.

We are in essence one with all existence; when we truly observe ourselves there is
ultimately no observer, only observation— awareness.”

Sunday, October 29, 2023

Goal Assessment January 12, 2022

 Begin forwarded message:


From: Frederick Vogt <fvogt@me.com>
Subject: Re: goals; update after 15 Years
Date: January 12, 2022 at 11:59:34 AM EST
To: Harry Vogt <hevogt@gmail.com>, James Vogt <jvogt.cda@gmail.com>

Jim, and Harry

I don’t have an email showing I ever replied to you question below.  I hope I gave you a phone call instead.

My perspective has certainly changed in the last 4 years of my retirement.  I tend to get “addicted” to my goals, and neglect other parts of my life that are not part of a goal. I thought I would live “goal free” as Harry mentions below, but I found my body began to rebel.  I was getting physically out of shape, my belly was getting bigger.  I have found that a certain minimum structure for my days is valuable for keeping fit and healthy, and to keep moving toward my current interests.  As long as I stick to my daily routine, determined by my weekly/monthly plans, everything works well and I feel happy with my life.

My current interests, (but not goals) are:
  • to have a better understanding why people behave the way they do, so many people are their own worst enemies and they don’t seem to know it.
  • To learn the mathematics that I need to know to understand modern physics books, i.e. number theory, analytic geometry and n-dimensional vector calculus.  These are topics that I covered in college, but I have found it very rewarding to revisit them.  
  • To understand the role of concepts in my thinking by watching how my mind works when I work math problems out imaginatively and then formalize them via concepts.  I am amazed to find out how large the role of imagination is in thinking and understanding.
  • To read good stories and essays, learn to appreciate good drama on TV or in books and improve my senses of smell and taste.  Compared to Amanda I am almost blind when it comes to smell, taste, appreciating drama, or listening to music.  I am beginning to desire to enhance my experience in these artistic arenas. 
My biggest distraction is the local library system.  I am limiting the number of books I check out at a time, so that I can get more of my own studies and home projects done.  Home projects are to clean out old files, photographs, floppy disks, and email, (like this one).

My worst bad habit is not asserting myself in conversation with others.  I have an underlying fear I won’t be liked.

When I look back on my working life, I realize other things could have been accomplished if I had dedicated myself to those goals, but when I read my old files, and emails from those time periods of my life, I see that I made the best possible choices for who I was at the time.  So no regrets.  

Goals are given to us by the possibilities that we commit to.  We all have possibility via imagination, what is missing willingness commit. If I am not working toward my goals, I ask myself “what is stopping me?”  I write down the answers for clarity and post them on my bathroom mirror.

Frederick N. Vogt
410-746-1502 cell
fnvogt@gmail.com
fvogt@mac.com






On Dec 11, 2006, at 8:53 PM, Harry Vogt <hvogt@metrocast.net> wrote:

Thursday, October 26, 2023

Brain Surgery September 4th

Started writing a reply to your email yesterday afternoon.  It turns out that I write “like a nut,” doing lengthy documents that are barely connected to the idea and carry crazy implications.  What I write in the afternoon tends to be worse that what I can write in the morning.


I can do it better by keeping it brief.  I had to have brain surgery September 4th due to microbial infection of my brain.  My surgery has worked out well (by the doctors standards, seems terrible to me).  We saw my doctor yesterday for a quick check on his part.  I didn’t know exactly who he was, (typical symptom of brain surgery), until he told me.  I thought he was a potential member of his staff.  I was surprised that the actual surgeon wanted to check with me.

Your complaints about visiting nurses and various types of therapy weakly matches my experience.  My visitors did speak English and were understandable.  Had one or two good visits, but the majority were poorly prepared nurses.  A couple of them were so bad that Amanda called the medical clinic and reported that we did not want to see xxx, yyy, ever again.

It sounds to me that you live in a wonderful place.  Evidently more summer oriented than annually functional.  I am sure that you a leading the trend and will see great progress in the next few years.

We moved to NH, the state where I grew up. My sister Jane, my brother Harry live close enough to drive over for dinner.  We picked a place to live that is close to the airport, a hospital, and has a nice view of the Merrimack river.  Amanda did several months of research via the internet before we left Maryland to physically inspect this place.  We rented for two years just incase we found something that we liked better. We didn’t.

Recently, a few days ago, I realized that fitness and health do not ensure freedom from disease or a long life.  This generated an early morning sense of urgency to do only what I really want to do and not waste any of my time watching or reading fiction.  (Perhaps this is what happened to me, or I have invented a fake explanation of who I am.)

I have been rereading a Kindle book on philosophy by Mortimer J. Adler.  The reason I know that I am rereading it is that it has notes that I left so long ago that I am a completely different thinker than I was 15 years ago, (Kindle hit the market in 2007.)  I read the book now and I have to read many pages and paragraphs at least three times to understand what Adler is writing.  I felt that this rereading was a symptom of my brain surgery, i.e. stupidity.  Then I found a note, by me years ago, in the book that cited exactly the same information about rereading pages three times.  I believed the repeated reading was related to the complexity of the document.  So I now confuse normal rereading as being a symptom of my stupidity.  I am confusing intelligence with stupidity.

Amanda has confronted me many times for blaming my thoughts and actions on my brain surgery.  She assures me that I am acting effectively and normally. I should stop complaining about the quality of my thoughts and actions.

My lesson is that just because my sense of thinking and feeling is different doesn’t mean that it is worse than it used to be.  It is only different, not worse (i.e. crazier).

Monday, October 23, 2023

Completion of my Life, History

Completion of my Life, History

Can I write essays using email drafts?
Steps:
Send essay to "fvogt@mac.com”
Start writing derived from steno pad notes.

Topic is “completion of my life.” Notes are on page 20231022 Sunday.

In 1990, a few months after separation from my wife Donna, I am taking the Landmark Forum during the month of March, forget the exact date, second week end etc?

I was 35 years old, and I realized that my life was complete. I had accomplished all I wanted, needed in life. I had two children, an ex-wife (soon to be) who would take care of them.
Now at age 68 I discover that there is much more to my life that I had ever imagined. I am still growing and expanding my self. Incredible, how does this happen? I continue to discover my “road to freedom.”


Key insights:
Discovering the ideas and habits that I unconsciously carry with me and use them to drive my behavior. Following discovery making decisions about following or changing them? Can this even done, can I recall them a few days later, can I honestly change my being, am I related to and helping the people that I know? Discovery that what I think is growth is finding out that this is not due to retirement or older age. I find younger people dealing with the same or more complicated issues.

Sunday, May 07, 2023

Comments on Detachment and Caroline Myss

Why People Don't Heal and How They Can: A Practical Programme for Healing Body, Mind and SpiritWhy People Don't Heal and How They Can: A Practical Programme for Healing Body, Mind and Spirit by Caroline Myss
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Carolyn Myss on “Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can.”

Miss Myss gets critical comments from some readers for lacking scientific evidence for her ideas. By scientific I image these folks mean randomized double blind trials with thousands of participants. Myss needs to be read in the manner of poetry or scripture, with spirit, not with mechanical reductionist formalism of the scientist. Psychology and theology are not scientific fields because their essence is dealing with human will.

A few of her words that are particular useful for me are:
Page 150, second paragraph, she says “In fact, reaching a detached state of mind for even five minutes a day is so valuable it can infuse your body with the equivalent energy of six months of living in genuine hope.” She suggests prayer or a mantra to attain detachment. [My preference is Meister Eckhart’s treatises “On Detachment.” A person does not need to believe in a god to learn from the arguments and tools of theology.]

Page 191 first paragraph, she provides a daily practice of paying attention to your energy that is facilitated by [and facilitates] detachment. [Preliminay exercises for feeling my energy are feeling, occupying my body, my feet, legs and so on up and out. Eventually, maybe months, years of practice, awareness of energy comes.]

My only criticism is that she does not discuss how truly difficult and challenging it is to hold onto detachment or energy awareness for more than a fleeting moment.

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Monday, October 17, 2022

My Notes from "Calling Bullshit: The Art of Skepticism in a Data-Driven World"

Calling Bullshit: The Art of Skepticism in a Data-Driven WorldCalling Bullshit: The Art of Skepticism in a Data-Driven World by Carl T. Bergstrom
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

A good review, for scientists and engineers, and probably news to the liberal arts culture (reference C. P. Snow's "The Two Cultures"), of the current use of numbers, statistics and charts to mislead readers.

The final chapter "Refuting Bullshit" is the best chapter of the book. Read this chapter first if you are in a hurry. Then fill any gaps in understanding by reviewing the previous chapters and sections as needed.

Page 232 says, "A single study doesn't tell you much about what the world is like. It has little value unless you know the rest of the literature and have a sense about how to integrate these findings with previous ones. Researchers weigh the evidence across multiple studies and try to understand why multiple studies often produce seemingly inconsistent results."

They quote Jonathan Swift, "Falsehood flies, and truth comes limping after it."


In chapter 9 he explains a principle called the "base rate fallacy" based on the statistical concept of "p-value."

He uses several examples, one is a suspect whose finger print matches the finger print on file with the police. The reported odds of this are one in 10 million. But the probability that the suspect is guilty requires that we know how many other peoples have the matching finger print. It turns out that in a database of 50 million, 5 other people are a match also.

Therefore the odds of the person being guilty are one in five, not one in 50 million!

When the suspect comes up with a matching finger print then the probability must evaluated agains all the others who also have a matching finger print.

He provides more examples, Lyme disease testing, testing for ESP with playing cards, why so many "proven" science results cannot be duplicated by other scientists. If you come up positive on a Lyme disease test the probability of your having Lyme disease must be based on the population of positive results. How many false positives for Lyme exist? At the time of this book, it was a surprisingly large percentage.

My take away is the the "p-value" error may be like finding theories to fit the data. About as bad as selecting data to fit the theory. For theories based on research of huge amounts of data, data can always be found to support many spurious correlations.

[Please note that they say matching finger print, distinct from the same finger print.]
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Wednesday, June 29, 2022

Self Awareness through Literature

Wonderworks: The 25 Most Powerful Inventions in the History of LiteratureWonderworks: The 25 Most Powerful Inventions in the History of Literature by Angus Fletcher
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I have not read Wonderworks since May 25th, 2022. I asked myself why I was putting it off. I realized that the underlying idea that most of what we do is driven by how we feel is a little bit depressing. It is like I am a puppet on biochemical strings, endorphins, adrenaline, oxytocin, dopamine. On the other hand I have enhanced awareness of how my body feels and how it is affected by my thoughts, food, and exercise. Intellectually I have known about this for a long time, but I am becoming aware of it at a deeper, more direct level than before.

For years I have puzzled over the difference between awareness, attention and knowing. In summary, awareness is direct perception of what is happening in my body. It is wordless, knowledge that does not come through ideas or perception. I found this discussion and distinction in Mortimer Adler’s theory of language presented in his small book “Some Questions about Language” page 99 in chapter 4, question number six. I found that going to any one section of this book and trying to read it for a quick answer to my questions is incomprehensible without first studying the intellectual scaffold of all the preceding pages. I had to be very patient to get to page 99 and I found that I could not read this book in anything but short doses each day. Almost as difficult as studying my mathematics books.

So back to Wonderworks, I immediately see that what I get from books I also get from my own thoughts and memories. In a sense every thought or memory is a potential story and produces its own feeling in me. I was surprised to recognize that the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is to find thoughts and possibilities that inspire me to get up and get things done, until this new awareness I just thought it was a result of habit and my good character, ;).

What it really is, is using my imagination to manage my body chemistry to excite myself into action. What a great tool that I didn’t even know I was using automatically. If anyone had asked me prior to starting to read Wonderworks, I would have said that I can call on my imagination to manage my feelings, but I don’t do it except on rare occasions when I feel in need of a little extra grit or happiness. Now I see it happens all the time, I am a continuous flow of feelings driven by my behavior and diet. But I am more than this in a way that I can’t yet describe yet.

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Thursday, March 31, 2022

Notes from "Twilight of Democracy" by Anne Applebaum

Twilight of Democracy: The Seductive Lure of AuthoritarianismTwilight of Democracy: The Seductive Lure of Authoritarianism by Anne Applebaum
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

I gained several valuable insights from this book:

On page 16 she cites the work of Karen Stenner (https://www.karenstenner.com), a behavioral economist, who argued that about a third of the population in any country has what she calls an authoritarian predisposition, a word that is more useful than personality, because it is less rigid. Authoritarianism appeals to people who cannot tolerate complexity.

On page 29 she says "If you are someone who believes that you deserve to rule, then your motivation to attack the elite, pack the courts, and warp the press to achieve you ambitions is strong. Resentment, envy and above all the belief that the "system" is unfair--not just to the country but to you--these are important sentiments among the nativist ideologues of the Polish right, so much so that it is not easy to pick apart their personal and political motives.
Then she goes on to delve into a case study of this phenomena by looking at two brothers who went in opposite ways. Very interesting.

On page 38 she distinguishes between the "Big Lie" and the "Medium-Size Lie" use in propaganda. The effort to avoid the facts of reality, but still have the lies believed, lead to these lies.

On page 45 she continues a specific discussion of conspiracy theory in Polish politics by generalizing that "The emotional appeal of a conspiracy theory is in its simplicity. It explains away complex phenomena, accounts for chance and accidents, offers the believer the satisfying sense of having special, privileged access to the truth."

On page 144, she quotes others from de Tocqueville to Reagan "... that American patriotism is unique, both then and later, was the fact that it was never explicitly connected to a single ethnic identity with a single origin in a single ethnic identity with a single origin in a single space." {To me this seems like common sense, but apparently not if someone needs to emphasize it.}



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Thursday, March 03, 2022

Mathematics, Why am I studying my college textbooks?

First I want to have a better understanding of what my mind does in the process of solving mathematical problems, proving theorems and general propositions in mathematics.  Why do I want this? Because I plan to develop a deeper understanding of Objectivist epistemology compared to the one presented by Mortimer J. Adler’s “The Four Dimensions of Philosophy” and “Ten Philosophical Mistakes”.  Adler’s “object of thought” vs Rand’s “mental entity.” 


A second reason for deepening my knowledge of calculus and related topics in topology and abstract algebra is to be able to read Penrose’s “The Road to Reality.”   Penrose suggests in his preface to the book that by working through the exercises he presents, an interested reader can gain better knowledge of the mathematics that powers quantum physics.  His exercises  worked fine for me up to about chapter 5 where he asks for proof of his expansion of exponentials in radial coordinates as an exercise for the interested reader.  I recognized the process, but I don’t think I ever mastered in the first time around in my calculus, or physics, courses.  Then he goes way deeper into Complex Analysis than I ever did.  I disposed of my Complex Analysis book when we were paring down our possessions.  Fortunately Penrose recommended a complex analysis textbook  by one of his students. It is available for free on-line, and I am excited for the chance to study it.


Third, my high school assessment of psychology let to math as the “perfection” of human thinking, thus the pinnacle of psychological study.  Inspired by Isaac Asimov’s “Second Foundation” novel.



My reading Feynman’s biography by James Gleick “Genius” clarified the distinction for me that Penrose had alluded to, understanding more than just manipulating symbols but grasping the meanings of the equations in as near a sensory manner as possible.  Rand speaks of this in her essays about rationality, but never dives deep into it the way the physicists do.


Coincidentally, I am reading a history of economic thought in “Hayek’s Challenge” by Bruce Caldwell.  The history cites epistemological errors in the use of abstract concepts by brilliant people in the early 1900’s.  Sadly I still run across many of these same kinds of errors in current social, economic, news, and other reporting.  


My best guess is that many of these people come from a literary background and have no hands on appreciation for the role of abstract concepts used as tools to understand reality.  It as if I told them about a the concept of a circle, they would want to see empirical proof that it exists, else what good is it?  How many studies have we heard about over the years that dig into the causes of poverty, and they always come up with the same answer.  I can remember at least three that I have listened to, while commuting to work, over the decades.  It is reassuring that they all get the same answer, but does the endless accumulation of data ever going to give something essentially new?  It is like going out and gather data on all the examples of circles in the world in an attempt to prove the concept of circle.  Each area of knowledge has its own modes of investigation, and proof.  History is not the same as mathematics, chemistry is not the same as economics.  The problem with economic research is trying to meet the demand for forecasting in order to support state policy.  


Politics motivated the money spent in educating economists, hence economists doe the best they can to support providing the desires of politicians to “control” the economy for the benefit of the “common good,” e.g. more votes, more money for politicians.  I believe this phenomena explains I. Kant’s theories of reason, and ethics.  To support his Prussian King.


Example of learning, the definition of a function:

My initial steps were a cursory review of material that I “thought I knew.”  Well maybe I missed some of the nuances, such as. the definition of supply set, that I glossed over because it seemed pretty trivial.  The contents of the domain are drawn from the supply set.


The resistance to learning the formal definition of a function was that I had an intrinsic preference for curves instead of ordered pairs.  Because I feel very bored with infinite series, number theory, set theory, fields, all the algebraic reasoning that goes into this stuff.  


As I continue to study math, I make more and more connections between fields of math that I had not appreciated before.  Algebra (abstract algebra), matrices, calculus, series, polynomials, the limits of what may be calculated.


As I observe the back and forth of imagination and logic I develop a much greater personal appreciation for imagination.  Some how this study has also allowed me to recognize the allusions to this imagination-logic process by all sorts of people.  Allusions that I would have not and did not notice in the past.


Even current debate in mathematical theory about teaching and understanding calculus, a geometrical, image based (imaginative) approach or a more formal abstract explanation based in proven number theory,  delta-epsilon proofs.  The debate is still current and driving other lines of mathematical investigation.  


What would make this discussion more interesting would be the demonstration of the various findings and writings of these uses and discussions of imagination and logic.  Imagination comes before logic in our thinking, both developmentally and functionally, but many people stop at imagination because it moves so quickly and feels so satisfying, but really it is a short cut to thinking by skipping verification of imagination by the use of logic and establishing consistency with prior knowledge.  Even Kant mentions the importance of confirming imagination by logic unless it is his special intuition.  

[TODO: Quote Kant on above comments about verification of imagination]


Quotes from "The New Tsar: The Rise and Reign of Vladimir Putin"

 

The New Tsar: The Rise and Reign of Vladimir PutinThe New Tsar: The Rise and Reign of Vladimir Putin by Steven Lee Myers
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This book is very timely for today's events.
Quote from page 474 describes events in 2014 with war in Crimea, Eastern Ukraine and just after Malaysian Airlines Flight 17 was shot down over eastern Ukraine:

"Entire sections of the [Russian] economy, including banking and energy, now faced sanctions, not just the officials and friends close to Putin. By the middle of 2014, capital flight had reached $75 billion for the year as those with cash sought safe harbors offshore; by the end of the year $150 billion had fled the country. The economy, already slowing, slumped badly as investments withered. The value of the ruble crashed, despite efforts by the central bank to shore it up. The prices of oil slumped--which Putin blamed on a conspiracy between the United States and Saudi Arabia--and that strained the budget, depleting the reserves that Putin had steadfastly built up throughout his years in power. Russia plunged into an economic crisis as bad as the one in 1998 and 2009. Putin’s tactics had backfired. Many in the West cheered, seeing the economic crisis as evidence of the self-inflicted pain of Putin’s actions, but the isolation also fed Putin’s view that the crises confronting Russia economically and diplomatically were part of a vast conspiracy effort to weaken Russia—to weaken his rule.”

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Thursday, January 13, 2022

Notes from Godel's Proof by Nagel and Newman

Gödel's ProofGödel's Proof by Ernest Nagel
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I have discovered recently, the last month or so, that when I read, I only read and recall what interests me at the time of me reading. Hence my reading of this book is skewed by my current fascination with imagination and conceptualization. I am not willing not to invest the time it would take me to assess the mathematical value of this apparently exceptional summary of Godel's Proof.

This book greatly extended my mathematical horizons. The questions that it evoked and the effort I took to dig into these questions were very useful. I discovered that mathematics was developed as an imaginative effort through history until the expression of Euclid's geometry in terms of algebra was done by Descartes' analytic geometry. The frequent references to "The Principles of Mathematics" by Russell, Whitehead, inspired me to find out the contents of this famous work. I was surprised and pleased to see that my book on Advance Calculus by Hans Sagan follows an outline that was probably inspired by the Principles.

Useful quotes from this book:
Page 10. "It was not until the 19th century, chiefly though the work of Gauss, Bolyai, Lobachevsky, and Riemann, that the impossibility of deducing the parallel axiom from the other was demonstrated. ... The traditional belief that the axioms of geometry (or for that matter, the axioms of any discipline) can be established by their apparent self-evidence was the radically undermined. ... the proper business of the pure mathematician is to derive theorems from postulated assumptions, and that it is not his concern as a mathematician to decide whether the axioms he assumes are actually true. ... Axiomatic foundations were eventually supplied for fields of inquiry that had hitherto been cultivated only in a more or less intuitive manner. (In 1899 the arithmetic of cardinal numbers was axiomatized by Giuseppe Peano.)” {Note: cardinal numbers denote quantities.}

Page 11. Hence mathematics is not just the "science of quantity." "... mathematics is simply the discipline par excellence that draws conclusions logically implied by any given set of axioms or postulates.”

Page 12, David Hilbert published his axioms of geometry in 1899. Hilbert states that the connotations of primitive terms ignored, their meaning depends only on the axioms. (Primitive terms are “point”, “line”, “lies on”, and “between.”)

My comment: In this sense mathematical formalization, logic, frees our minds from the limits of our imagination. Examples are ’n’ dimensional spaces, negative numbers, complex numbers.

My understanding is that intuition is a kind of imagination. Imagination gave us the earliest geometry, and imagination continues to be a powerful tool to leap across the unimaginable valleys of logic. Arithmetic moved from domain of imagination to logic in 1899, thanks to Peano. Ditto for geometry by Hilbert.

Page 14, “Moreover, as we all know, intuition is not a safe guide: it cannot be used as a criterion of either truth or fruitfulness in scientific explorations.”

My comment, ditto for philosophical opinions, e.g. I. Kant’s
“But in order to ascertain to what given intuitions objects, external me, really correspond, in other words, what intuitions belong to the external sense and not to imagination, I must have recourse, in every particular case, to those rules according to which experience in general (even internal experience) is distinguished from imagination, and which are always based on the proposition that there really is an external experience.”

Kant, Immanuel. Complete Woks of Immanuel Kant (p. 29). Minerva Classics. Kindle Edition.

Page 23, Another example of the failure of “clear” and “distinct” intuitive notions is the notion of “class” or “aggregate.” Bertrand Russell’s antinomy, paradox, “Classes seem to be of two kinds: those which do not contain themselves as members, and those which do. A class will be called ‘normal’ if, and only if, it does not contain itself as a member; otherwise it will be called ‘non-normal.” Then what is the class ’N’ that stands for the class of all normal classes? If ’N’ is normal it is a member of itself because by definition ’N’ is all normal classes, but if it includes itself, but then it would not be normal.

My comment: Epistemologically this looks like shifting the level of abstraction without noticing the shift. A class of all normal classes is a higher level abstraction that a “class.” On page 28, Hilbert’s solution to this issue is “meta-mathematical” statements, a language that is about mathematics. Hence meta-mathematics is a different level of abstraction.

Page 34, an analogy to meta-mathematics is made with the game of chess. The pieces have no meaning but they must be moved according to the rules of the game. The chess pieces correspond to the elementary signs of a formalized mathematical calculus, the legal positions of the pieces, to the formulas derived from the axioms (i.e. theorems); and the rules of the game to the rules of inference for the calculus. A theory of meta-chess can tell us about the number of possible moves that White can make at any point in the game. A theory of meta-mathematics may be able to tell us if contradictory formulas may be derived from a given mathematical calculus.

Page 83, distinguishes signifiers from concepts using the difference between numerals and numbers. “A numeral is a sign, a linguistic expressions, something which one can write down, erase, copy, and so on. A number, on the other hand, is something which a numeral names or designates and which cannot literally be written down erased, copied, and so on. … A number is a property of classes (and is sometimes said to be a concept), not something we can put on paper.
My comment: I need to read Adler’s book Some Questions About Language: A Theory of Human Discourse and Its Objects (1976)

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Wednesday, January 12, 2022

Goals at 67

 My perspective has certainly changed in the last 4 years of my retirement.  I tend to get “addicted” to my goals, and neglect other parts of my life that are not part of a goal. I thought I would live “goal free” as Harry mentions below, but I found my body began to rebel.  I was getting physically out of shape, my belly was getting bigger.  I have found that a certain minimum structure for my days is valuable for keeping fit and healthy, and to keep moving toward my current interests.  As long as I stick to my daily routine, determined by my weekly/monthly plans, everything works well and I feel happy with my life.


My current interests, (but not goals) are:
  • to have a better understanding why people behave the way they do, so many people are their own worst enemies and they don’t seem to know it.
  • To learn the mathematics that I need to know to understand modern physics books, i.e. number theory, analytic geometry and n-dimensional vector calculus.  These are topics that I covered in college, but I have found it very rewarding to revisit them.  
  • To understand the role of concepts in my thinking by watching how my mind works when I work math problems out imaginatively and then formalize them via concepts.  I am amazed to find out how large the role of imagination is in thinking and understanding.
  • To read good stories and essays, learn to appreciate good drama on TV or in books and improve my senses of smell and taste.  Compared to Amanda I am almost blind when it comes to smell, taste, appreciating drama, or listening to music.  I am beginning to desire to enhance my experience in these artistic arenas. 
My biggest distraction is the local library system.  I am limiting the number of books I check out at a time, so that I can get more of my own studies and home projects done.  Home projects are to clean out old files, photographs, floppy disks, and emails, (like this one).

My worst bad habit is not asserting myself in conversation with others.  I have an underlying fear I won’t be liked.

When I look back on my working life, I realize other things could have been accomplished if I had dedicated myself to those goals, but when I read my old files, and emails from those time periods of my life, I see that I made the best possible choices for who I was at the time.  So no regrets.  

Goals are given to us by the possibilities that we commit to.  We all have possibility via imagination, what is missing willingness commit. If I am not working toward my goals, I ask myself “what is stopping me?”  I write down the answers for clarity and post them on my bathroom mirror.

Thursday, January 06, 2022

Mathematics and Imagination Lessons

I had the opportunity this morning to review some of the notes I made about Immanuel Kant’s Critique of Pure Reason.  I realize on second reading of my highlights in the Kindle book, that I failed to understand what Kant was trying to say, my bad.  Of particular interest to me today was in the preface where Kant says

"A philosophical system cannot come forward armed at all points like a mathematical treatise, and hence it may be quite possible to take objection to particular passages, …”  He goes on to say that he is 64 years old and does not have the time to make his writing free of all mistakes and inconsistencies, he depends upon future generations to smooth the “rough edges” of his exposition.
              Kant, Immanuel. Complete Woks of Immanuel Kant (p. 30). Minerva Classics. Kindle Edition. 

I have been collecting evidence for imagination from other writers, to learn if what they have to say is the same as my own conclusions.  This has led me down some interesting side paths.  Most notably the lecture by Richard Feynman "The Relation of Mathematics to Physics" and a small book “Godel’s Proof” by Ernst Nagel and James R. Newman.  As a former math major this book really expanded my horizons and showed me connections that I had never contemplated.  

I haven’t found anyone that contradicts what I am thinking.  What surprises me is that imagination is such a common theme among mathematicians, scientists and engineers. I see now that all my reading of the past was always in search of an answer to a question, and if what I read didn’t seem to apply to my question, I would ignore it, or at least give it no attention.

I suspect that if I attempt to give you quick answers, I may find myself contradicting what I have to say at later date.

First, I define imagination as mental images, models of what is not before my senses.  Imagination includes memory, planning, what I have in mind to create (write, draw, say).  Intuition is a form of imagination.  I see a car, and my imagination using memories and logic tells me it is a 3 dimensional object with an internal combustion engine and wheels. My imagination may be wrong, it may be running on a battery, it may be clever picture of a car painted on the wall of a barn.  Similarly, we don’t “know” the person we are talking to, we only know our imagination of them.  

In Math, the number two is an abstraction from pairs of items that exist either in the world of in our imagination. The number two is a concept, perhaps it represents a process of pairing.  But you will never find the number 2 in the objective world, certainly not the number “-2”, nor the square root of "-2".

The awakening moment for me was realizing that the number line is pure imagination!  This insight came when I was working on a series of proofs about ordered fields.  Since I am interested in learning the difference between imagination and conceptual thinking I would write each proof imaginatively, drawing diagrams as needed to prove the point.  Then I would work to write a formal proof based on prior axioms, definitions, and previously proved theorems.

Example: If “a” is a member of an order field, numbers are an ordered field, and “a” > 0 then prove 1/a >0.
Imaginatively this is drop dead obvious, 
I imagine a number line: 
<——————————|————|—————————> positive direction
negative                        0             a

I imagine “a” some number >0 on the right hand side of the 0 in the drawing above.
I imagine 1/a as a point on the line that clearly is >0.  Taking the reciprocal of a number cannot be negative.
Notice that for a complete imaginative proof, I would need two diagrams, one for a < 1, another for a >= 1.

Formally, i.e. logically, it takes more thinking.  (The fringe benefit of formal methods is that they come closer to what may be programmed into a computer.)
  1. Suppose that 1/a < 0 and “a” > 0, contrary to initial assumptions.  // I am thinking of proof by contradiction
  2. Then a * 1/a = 1 > 0 by axiom of multiplicative inverse.
  3. But a positive number times a negative number is < 0 (i.e. negative), by previously proved rule that -a=a(-1). // I did this in an earlier exercise, so I can build on the result.
  4. Hence supposing that 1/a < 0 leads to a contradiction, that a negative times a positive is > 0, 
  5. Therefore 1/a > 0.   QED


Comments, the power of abstraction (conceptualization) is that “a” stands for any number.  The number line is pure imagination, formally this number line represents the mathematical definition of an ordered field.  The image gives our minds something to “hang onto” in order to use the concept of “ordered field.”
Notice that I am using my imagination to manipulate abstract symbols, number line, zero, positive and negatived.  This is a step away from using my imagination to manipulate a pencil and paper to draw a picture.

With practice I have learned that the imaginative proof is frequently in incomplete, as seen above, and sometimes it is just plain wrong.  What seems clear and intuitive is not always correct.  A good example is the “Russell Paradox” of set theory.  

The incentive for creating things, (diagrams, paintings, essays, science, machines, tools, music, etc.), is that it brings my imaginations to life and embodiment.  At the same time creations make my imagination more detailed, complete, and accurate to the domain that I am imagining in.