Blogging for Me

I have the feeling when I read my old blogs that they seem so inane! It is discouraging. But should it discourage me?

The other concern is repetition. I write down an insight, and much later I record a similar insight. I have forgotten the insight from the first time it came to me.  This is not a new discovery either. In the days of paper I used to list my "new insights," "awarenesses," etc. as they occurred.  After a couple of years of doing this I reviewed my list and was amazed to discover how many times I had listed the same insight more than once, and each time it seemed "new" to me.  Later I found a line in one of Karen Horney's books about this phenomena.  She said it was a result of not fully integrating and insight once it is achieved. It is important to dwell with and explore an insight to make it stick.

The biggest barrier to learning is thinking I already know.

The most recent example of this was gained by reading Rita Mulcahy's Project Management Guide. Because I thought I already knew, as I skimmed through the PMBOK over the last few decades, I never took the time to think about what I was looking at.

Rita's book helped me to recognize all the things that I had never articulated. The shadows and shapes in the room of awareness that I rely on without knowing what I am doing.

It is putting on a new pair of glasses, or a new set of eyes. Suddenly I have words for what I had no words for.  Suddenly I see what's missing and won't accept excuses for why it is missing!

I regret? all the years I spent in the "rabbit hole" of IT skills, and the "crisis of the moment."
Now at least I can live life as it is meant to be lived.

The key to fuller awareness is in my hands, do I have the courage to use it?