I became identified with the remarks of associates about the content of my blog and requests to post items to promote their goals (suggestibility). The blog was no longer a tool for clarifying my own thoughts, and occasionally feelings. I believed that I could still blog in the face of the feeling of resentment -- interesting, I'm ashamed to admit that I wasn't conscious of that feeling or the accompanying belief until just now, but it is clearly recorded in my memories (kundabuffer).
This is the pain of self-observation. (I hesitate to say "remorse of conscience.")
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This is not self-observation. It is reporting on a memory. Self-observation is sensing and observing this in the moment it is happening. Don't fool yourself!
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